bila rasa stress....apa nak buat?

actually dah masuk 3 hari rasa xsedap badan aka stress. tasha rasa berdebar2 sangat. anxious, negative, stress, mimpi pun dah bukan2. mimpi orang mati, kubur...huhu.. entah la.

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i need to talk to someone. this is called downward spiral according to resilient.com.

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how to prevent this? according to the blog i must

1. first, stop what u're doing.
• ingat, kita tengah berdepan denga stress yang melibatkan emosi. jika kita paksa diri kita buat juga apa yang kita buat, kita akan cenderung buat silap. so, STOP!
2. talk it out
• bincangkan perkara ini dengan sesiapa yang anda percayai dan anda tau boleh bantu anda
3. let it go
• distract yourself. maafkan diri dan sesiapa yang terlibat dan buat sesuatu untuk alih perhatian seperti bersenam
4. give it some times
• lupakan, bagi masa untuk bertenang..biar seminggu atau selama mana anda mahu. fikir balik bila dah xde emotional attachement denga perkara tu
5. take stock with fresh eyes
• berfikir dengan matang. adakah saya boleh ubah situasi ini atau saya boleh ubah cara saya berfikir. starts new n fresh

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so, sekarang...lepas tasha stop dan tak fikir..tasha start rasa anxious pulak... nanti tasha share tips anxiety pulak. haih, anxiety is tiring

khaira and anxiety

13 Dec 2016

it'S really breaks my heart seeing how khaira trying to cope with her anxiety.

when something uneasy-in her perspective happened, she will be sooo panic, keep repeating words and trying to get out of the situation. she seems so anxious!

this morning she watched spongebob. maybe there was some scene that made her felt not comfortable. so she suddenly run to the bathroom and said, 'nak mandi...nak mandi ', dia menjerit2. dia trs masuk toilet sambil repeating the words nak mandi. bila dalam toilet and dengar music spongebob dah habis, dia terus taknak mandi  dan keluar.

and me?
i feel so sad. as the only way for me to express myself is through writing... i tried to write in journal but i feel so tired. so i switch on my pc and type this blog. my 2 yo boy disrupted me. i feel so angry and raised my voice. khaira heard it and came to me, asking me whats wrong? i told her 'dadek kacau mama'. she said, 'its ok mama.. 'and hug me.  i felt so tenang..

mayb inilah hikmahnya, she understands me. she comforts me.

and this boy who is on my laps, struggle to picit2 keyboard ni kadang2 buat i stress kadang2 buat i rasa kelakar. haha.. itulah dadek.

ok. tu je la nak cerita. sigh.

it starts here

hari ini adalah 1st appoitment khaira di HTJ untuk speech theraphy. for the past few months (september) we were full with khaira's weekly appoitments. mama dengan appoitment psy on my depression and khaira on mild autism checkups. kami ke HUKM dan HTJ. penat juga.hehe.

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then sometimes i shared on FB on khaira's performance and many give feedbacks on this. so i decided, since i love to write... why not i try to share all those journey in a blog. it can be my reference and others too. hopes this will help.

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and this is my 1st post on the blog.

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why i named it as 'mama yang gagah'? because being a mentally disorder mom is not easy. furthermore, i take care of my 2 kids on my own. anxiety and depression can attack you anytime. and taking care a mild autism daughter and a cheecky yet playful boy would test your patience most of the time. ahhh... not to mention i also sell sandwiches, brownies, butterscotch buns from home. i am a homebaker. hehe. and currently i involved with dropshipping natural skincare online. so much on my plate kn?

so... i am gagah. and pray that will be gagah forever...amin